Saturday, December 31, 2016

While We Wait: December 2016 (Month #12)

Wow, has another month really gone by?? Here we are in a brand new year, with 2016 behind us. In terms of adoption-related stuff, December was probably our "slowest" month to date. We went "live" with Open Door on December 1st, but since then we've had zero adoption activity - other than our usual daily (more than daily) prayers for the gift of a child and for protection over our future child's birthparents. We didn't get any calls or possible situations from either St. Joseph's or from Open Door, and (thank goodness!) we are ALL done with paperwork for quite a while - until either we are matched with a child or summer rolls around again.

Since all of December was either Advent or Christmas, that was what occupied us most this month. For the first time ever in our marriage, we didn't travel over the holidays. While of course we were sad to miss seeing family up in Erie, and miss the great family traditions we love, it also made Christmas very peaceful. And we were happy to welcome both Dan's mom and my parents for parts of Christmas and New Year's weekends. (Plus Penny the adorable dog!)

our tree! (this is the Advent version - we put on more decorations at Christmas)

Some of the particular highlights of December include:

  • Coming home from work on December 6 to find a SECRET St. Nicholas gift on our doorstep!! It was a HUGE bag full of all kinds of goodies from someone in our neighborhood or at least local. What a blessing that was!!
  • Hosting our first big party in our new home. While the numbers were somewhat reduced due to sickness, it was pleasantly snug and very cheerful. We sang Christmas carols, ate lots of great food, drank mulled cider, and read parts of Dickens' "A Christmas Carol" (our second annual reading). 
  • Attending an Advent concert at the John Paul II Shrine where Dan works - such beautiful music plus hot cocoa and caroling afterwards.
  • Dan turning in the second chapter of his dissertation - woo hoo Dan!! Two out of four means he's halfway there! (whoa-oh, living on a prayer....)
  • Also attending the Handel's Messiah sing-along at the Kennedy Center that is always held on December 23. We went with friends and it was such a riot trying to follow along in the choral parts! The music is so moving and joyful - definitely an amazing way to prepare for Christ's birth.
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Looking back at the month, there were a lot of blessings. Definitely some sadness at another Christmas without a little one in our home - there's not an easy way "around" that... But Jesus is here, Emmanuel, the Child we are all waiting for.

The new year brings a lot of nostalgia too. We had hoped that 2016 would be "the year of our first adoption" - that obviously was not the case. We will keep hoping - the year is fresh and young again! However long it takes to adopt, that's how long it takes to meet the child meant for our family and vice versa. We are so grateful for the prayers and support of so many friends and family this year - it really means a lot!

Sunday, December 4, 2016

While We Wait: November 2016 (Month #11)

Adoption related stuff:

Okay, technically this happened December 1st, but close enough! The big recent news is that we are now officially in a second "pool" for waiting parents - yayyyy! Open Door adoption agency gave us the green light on December 1st that we are now an "active" waiting family with them, meaning that they can show our profile book to any expectant moms who might be interested in a family like ours. We're really happy about this, and also relieved that for the time being paperwork is DONE!!!

We have an online profile with Open Door, here: http://www.opendooradoption.org/daniel-and-bethany. Screenshot:



It's similar to our printed profile book, but with a few less pictures. There might be more text though (there's a lot more than what shows up with the screen shot). As with the hard-copy book, it was tough to decide on which pictures to show, and what to say! This part of the process has felt very vulnerable to us, having to show who we are to a prospective birth parent through "static" pictures and text - what pictures to choose? who should be in them? close-ups? formal? and so on. Writing up our story really puts ourselves out there, too. We've become pretty comfortable talking about our hope to adopt, our struggle with infertility, etc., but it still feels a little scary to be so open! We have to keep reminding ourselves: it's not about being perfect (whatever that means) but about being the best fit for someone who chooses us to raise their child (what an awesome responsibility!).

So what happens now? We keep waiting! (naturally) We are still working with St. Joseph's, our original placement agency, but could now receive calls from Open Door as well. There's nothing left to "do" at this point from our end in terms of paperwork or preparations. For the first time in a while, it looks like we really will be just waiting, living our lives while we wait and see when and where our adoption will happen.

Speaking of waiting, a friend of ours from grad school wrote a beautiful reflection on waiting that we wanted to share: https://blessedisshe.net/the-most-wonderful-time-of-the-year-2/. The line that really jumped out at us was  "I’ve come to view waiting not as something to breeze through as quickly as humanly possible, but as something to be embraced and be transformed by."



That is our prayer, too! That this time of waiting (which from a human perspective feels longer every day) will not be just a holding pattern or a "blank" time, or something we rush through as quickly as possible (not that we have much control over that) but a time that transforms us by the grace of God to be the people - and hopefully one day the parents - that he has called us to be.

Thank you for your continued prayers!

Other Stuff We Did:

We were cultured this month! Bethany went to see Mary Poppins at a local theater with a dear friend whose sister was in the show. Then we both went to the Symphony thanks to free tickets through Dan's PhD program. And finally for Bethany's birthday, Dan took her to see the Nutcracker, which was playing just a few minutes from our house.

Bethany travelled to Baltimore for an annual work trip and Dan joined her for a few days. Despite being a work trip, this one always has some lovely moments of time spent with coworkers "off the clock" and time for sightseeing.

View of the harbor from the 37th floor of the World Trade Center


Dan took the helm!
We also travelled to Pennsylvania to visit Bethany's family over Thanksgiving. We got TWO big Thanksgiving-day meals, one at a big extended family reunion, and one at Bethany's childhood home. We also saw a movie together ("Arrival" - excellent), did a family craft (making evergreen baskets), watched a lot of football (let's not talk about that) and just enjoyed relaxing with mom, dad, and their hyperactive dog Penny.

Pre-food coma

Penny did not contribute to this project
Finally, Bethany had a birthday! This year it was on the first Sunday of Advent, which was delightful. We got our home ready for this beautiful season of joy, peace, and WAITING (perhaps the Lord would like to teach us something new about this!). And Dan made Bethany's birthday SO special: breakfast out at a lovely local cafe, the Nutcracker in the afternoon, and a homemade dinner at night plus the world's smallest birthday cake (which was fine with her after eating so many sweets during Thanksgiving!).

O Come, O Come, Emmanuel

All two bites were delicious
We hope you had a lovely November, Thanksgiving, and a blessed start to Advent!

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

This Giving Tuesday Give the Gift of a Loving, Stable Home

Hello all,

We thought we would encourage you on this Giving Tuesday to give to an adoption cause! Do you know of a couple in need of adoption assistance? Do you know an adoption agency who could use a donation? Then, we would encourage you to give to the beautiful cause of adoption. But above all, give to those in the middle of the adoption process, like us, the gift of your prayers. It is tough to wait, go through the ups and downs of the different cases, and sometimes to not be considered or rejected for cases. We know all about this now, so please bring some cheer to those adoptive parents or good adoption agencies by offering a small gift to them on this day all about giving! God bless!
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Sunday, November 6, 2016

While We Wait: October 2016 (Month #10)

Adoption related stuff:

We made some forward progress in October! To be honest, though, generally our adoption pilgrimage has felt like the joke in the Family Circus cartoons, where Billy takes the most circuitous route possible to accomplish a straight-forward task...


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Not that adoption is every really "straight-forward" - but this round-about, detour-filled, will-we-ever-reach-the-finish-line image resonates with us!

Back to the forward progress though: praise God, Dan's CPS clearance form was finally located, processed, sent back to our agency, and we are once again home study approved! (Oct. 11) Awesome good news that we were grateful to receive. The home study is current for one year, FYI.

Because of our home study being active, we were able to pursue our plan of signing up with an additional placement agency to help us find our child. The agency we settled on, after much prayer and discussion, is An Open Door, in Georgia. They were highly recommended by our home study agency, Barker, and all of our interactions with them have been great: responsive, clear, and helpful. A few reasons why we chose them are: they directly work with the expectant parents who are considering adoption, which means that we will get the most accurate and complete information possible about a potential match; they have a cap for their fees + birthparent and legal fees, which for us means that we do not put money "at risk" in the event of a match or placement that falls through; they have multiple locations around Georgia (we had to send them 20 copies of our profile book); and their agency is fairly active, which could mean a shorter waiting time from this point forward.

It's another leap of faith, another "yes" to where we believe God is calling us, but expanding our "reach" in this way brings us a lot of hope!

We have a few things left before being totally active with Open Door: six references have to send them back a reference questionnaire, and we have to send them pictures and text to put on their website ("waiting couples"). So here's hoping that works out quickly!

Also, in a really unexpected adoption moment, Dan won $500 at a local shopping center's grand opening! He had to take a picture with a concrete turtle (it's a long story) and his name was selected. A little boost to our adoption budget!

Dan & Tommy


Other Stuff We Did

October was pretty fun! The Fall colors are just starting to show here in our neck of the woods, and we enjoyed two weekend trips: one to Erie to visit Dan's family, and one to Rochester to become godparents to our dear little godson Theo.


Speaking of godchildren - good friends came to visit for a weekend in October (including our goddaughter and Bethany's godson). We had a blast going to the zoo on a beautiful Fall day, making our traditional big pancake breakfast, and going to Annapolis to watch the boats. It is such a blessing to be with great friends!




Dan had a BIG event at his job (St. John Paul II Shrine) on JPII's feast day, Oct. 22. Bethany's parents came down for it, which was really fun. It was an all-day celebration of this great saint's life with speakers, music, a beautiful Mass, adoration, etc. It was a lovely day for us and a great cap to the novena we had been saying for JPII's intercession.

JPII, we love you!
Finally - we had our first Halloween in our new house! Bethany in particularly was really excited to hand out candy. At our last house, we didn't get many trick or treaters because we were on a busy road with no sidewalk. This time we had plenty! It was fun to sit on our porch with some hot tea and enjoy all the kids' costumes. Although our neighbors across the street really outdid us with decorations....we will need to remedy that next year.

Thank you for your continued prayers!

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Novena to St. John Paul II for our Adoption

St. John Paul II has long been an important person in our lives. Dan saw him in Toronto for a World Youth Day event that was very impactful, and Bethany's encounter with his teachings on the theology of the body in college were a big part of what drew her to the Catholic faith. And of course, we met at the Pontifical John Paul II Institute for Studies on Marriage and Family!

Aww.......where it all began

On our honeymoon in Rome, which took place shortly after JPII was beatified, we prayed together at his tomb in St. Peter's Church. On his feast day last year, Bethany was in Rome for work and visited his tomb again, this time officially of Saint John Paul II. And now Dan works for the St. John Paul II Shrine!

Dan giving a good friend of ours a tour of the mosaics

Seriously, it's like he's following us! :) ....or I guess we're following him?

We have both been very touched by his writings on the dignity of the human person, love, sexuality, marriage, freedom, man's purpose in life, and so much more. These have formed and shaped our faith, our sense of self, our relationship with each other, and so much more. "Be not afraid" .... "Man cannot live without love" ... and so many other phrases are deep in our our hearts.

So, with that as a preface, we want to invite you to pray with us a novena to St. John Paul II for our adoption! It begins Oct. 14 (yesterday - sorry!) and ends on his feast day, Oct. 22. Shameless plug: for folks near DC, come celebrate his feast day at the JPII Shrine!

Here is the full novena, and Bethany is also posting each day's prayers on Facebook:

Pray for us!

Day One – October 14 

Reflection by Saint John Paul II: “It is Jesus in fact that you seek when you dream if happiness; he is waiting for you when nothing else you find satisfies you; he is the beauty to which you are so attracted . . .”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Day Two –  October 15 

Reflection by Saint John Paul II: “Darkness can only be scattered by light. Hatred can only be conquered by love. My most fervent wish, which I entrust to God in prayer . . . is that we should all carry in our unarmed hands the light of a love which nothing can discourage.”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Day Three – October 16 

Reflection by Saint John Paul II: “Do not be afraid. Open wide the doors for Christ. To his saving power open the boundaries of States, economic and political systems, the vast fields of culture, civilization and development. Do not be afraid.”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Day Four – October 17

Reflection by Saint John Paull II: “Faith is strengthened when it is given to others! It is in commitment to the Church’s universal mission that the new evangelization of Christian peoples will find inspiration and support.”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Day Five – October 18 

Reflection by Saint John Paull II: “As we ask for forgiveness, let us also forgive. This is what we say every day when we recite the prayer Jesus taught us: ‘Our Father . . . forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.’”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Day Six – October 19 

Reflection by Saint John Paul II: “The Good News which she received from her divine Founder obliges the Church to proclaim the message of salvation and human dignity and to condemn injustices and attacks on human dignity.”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Day Seven – Monday, October 20

Reflection by Saint John Paul II: “Certainly the whole mystery of Christ is a mystery of light. He is the ‘light of the world.’”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Day Eight – October 21 

Reflection by Saint John Paull II: “Thus the great gift of redemption – our being ‘brought forth’ to divine life – is a mighty work of God, the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. It must be received by us in faith. It must be lived. It must be proclaimed.”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Day Nine – October 22 

Reflection by Saint John Paull II: “The pilgrim Church on earth lifts its gaze to Heaven and exultantly joins the choir of those with whom God shares his glory. It is the communion of saints!”

Prayer for the Intercession of St. John Paul II
O Blessed Trinity, we thank you for having graced the Church with Saint John Paul II and for allowing the tenderness of your fatherly care, the glory of the Cross of Christ and the splendor of the Spirit of love to shine through him. Trusting fully in your infinite mercy and in the maternal intercession of Mary, he has given us a living image of Jesus the Good Shepherd. He has shown us that holiness is the necessary measure of ordinary Christian life and is the way of achieving eternal communion with you. Grant us, by his intercession, and according to your will, the graces we implore, through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Monday, October 3, 2016

While We Wait: September 2016 (Month #9)

Adoption related stuff:

In September we had two important moments toward getting our home study updated. First was our social worker visit on September 7. We love our social worker!! She is kind, thoughtful, knowledgeable and thorough - basically everything you would want in someone who is playing such an important role in your family's future. We were so excited to show her our new house! The interview was pretty basic, mostly focused on what has happened since we met with her last year, what things have changed, how are we doing, etc. Then a quick walk through of the house, and that's it. Very straight forward and honestly kind of fun.

The fire inspection for our new house took place September 20, and we passed. BUT it was a bit of an ordeal for Dan, who stayed home for it. As part of the inspection, he had to completely remove the window from our guest room - both top and bottom panes - to show the inspector that he could. The inspector almost didn't pass him because he didn't remove it quickly enough....but thankfully had a change of heart and just stamped on the form something about "shall practice removing window" (there is an actual stamp for that directive!)

We are STILL waiting for Dan's CPS form to clear. The county claims that they never received Dan's first form (even though it was sent in the same envelope as Bethany's, which cleared shortly thereafter) and the second form is currently MIA as well. Our wonderful adoption worker is doing her best to track down the CPS form, while also trying to stay on the county employees' good side. At this point, it's not a huge deal because we don't have any pending situations that are getting held up by this last form getting approved....but it would be nice to wrap up the paperwork so our home study is officially approved.

This month we had some long discussions about whether we wanted to join an additional adoption pool, and if so with which agency. Basically this would give us increased exposure to other women (and men) who are thinking about placing their child for adoption, which in turn could lead to a placement for us sooner rather than later. As an example of how complicated adoption can be, these were the kind of scenarios we had to compare in choosing an additional agency:

  • Agency A works in states where we have family and friends, and we know people who have adopted successfully from them, and they do active advertising to connect with possible birthparents...but they have a hefty up-front fee to join, work in some states that have higher legal fees because of the laws about terminating parental rights, and have some more hoops to jump through than other agencies
  • Agency B is in a state further away from us, where we don't know anyone, and has the highest overall fees...but their fee structure is all-inclusive and doesn't risk any of our money in case a situation falls through, and they are currently seeking adoptive families and will not charge us to join their pool
  • Agency C is local to us, meaning minimal travel expenses and possibly no fees for adopting out of state, and we trust their methods wholeheartedly and know they provide a lot of support for the birthparents...but their wait time is long and many placements are last-minute, meaning that they often present the families who have been waiting the longest
....and so on. Our point is that with adoption, there are always a million and one decisions beyond the initial "let's adopt" decision. While there are some deal-breakers when it comes to choosing an agency (like, do they treat birthparents with respect and are they transparent about their fees and procedures), we've found that usually there are several good-enough options and at the end of the day you just have to bite the bullet and choose one.

So we did choose one that we will be applying to in order to expand our "reach" so to speak, but we'll write more about that after sending in our application, which we plan to do in October.

The last adoption-related update is just to be real about how challenging the wait can be some days! For us, we've been waiting to become parents for over five years now, which is a decent amount of time (although we are always conscious of those who have been waiting longer). It often happens that the frustrations associated with the adoption process are compounded by our sadness about infertility and our continued childlessness. Friends of ours, who are adoptive parents, told us recently that the wait before their first child was much harder than the wait for the second, because of course then they were parents already. While we haven't gotten over the hump of parenthood yet, that rings true to us, absolutely - some days are easier and some days are harder but each and every day we are praying for our child to find our family, and often it is easy to get discouraged by how long it is taking. Of course we are happy to be on this adoption pilgrimage - but just wanted to be honest here!

Other stuff we did:

Football season started! We are Notre Dame fans (Bethany was introduced by Dan, who grew up watching ND as a kid with his grandpa). ......let's not talk about the catastrophic nose dive this season has taken.....but there were high hopes on the first day, and even when they lose it's a fun thing to do together!

Dan with the flag Bethany let him buy for the front of our house
We also had a fun time at a friend's Oktoberfest (which to our surprise is actually celebrated in September!)

"Drink, drink drink" was the refrain (more or less) in German of a song we all sang
In September we also spent a fair amount of time helping an elderly friend of ours who was in the hospital for a while. She does not have family to take care of her, so we have been honored to step in and help as needed to make sure she gets the care she needs.

And overall we're just trying to enjoy our lives, our friends, our new neighborhood and parish, and keep on keepin' on!


Monday, September 5, 2016

While We Wait: August 2016 (Month #8)

Adoption related stuff:

August presented us with some frustrations... We had hoped to have our home study updated by the end of August (following our move + some forms that need updated annually no matter what) but ran into two hurdles: 1) the fire inspector told us that he can't come inspect our house until September 20th (we had submitted the request in early August); 2) Dan's CPS (child protective services) clearance form was sent to the county by our agency but somehow the results never came back, even though Bethany's form was sent at the same time and her results came back quickly.

Bummer. There's really nothing we can do about this! It's frustrating for sure. Following the advice of our agency, we resubmitted Dan's CPS form in case the first is just hopelessly lost. And thankfully our agency let us schedule our home study in-house visit with our social worker for September 7th, before the fire inspection. Usually you have to have all the paperwork and inspections done before doing that. So now we are looking at the end of September to get back in the "pool." We are very ready!! It is hard to wait and stay patient, but as a wise adoptive mom friend told us, God has our child chosen for us already. We believe that and are so eager to meet him or her.

We did update our profile book in August. This is the book that prospective birthparents will look at to get to know us a bit and see if they want to choose us to adopt their child. We were pleased with our book already but wanted to add in some pictures from our new house plus some update pictures of us. One new page we added was one with some fun, goofy pictures to show that side of our personalities! It's a challenge with a book to portray the "real you" - pictures can only go so far. We are pleased with the updated book and excited to show it to possible birthparents when that time comes! (By the way, we used Mixbook and highly recommend it for any photo book project.)







Finally, we attended one "waiting parents" meeting at our agency. This one was a little different than the usual set-up of lecture plus Q&A. The leaders gave each table a set of real-life adoption scenarios that had happened at our agency. We were told what the adoptive parents were first told: some information about the expectant mom and dad, their families, health histories, remaining questions, and so on, and then as a table we had to discuss about what information we would want to know, and how to proceed with this situation. It was really interesting! I'm pleased that we came up with many ideas that the agency staff affirmed would have been good next steps - looks like we've learned something about adoption! :) The exercise brought home in a new way how complex adoption is, how many different factors are involved, and how every single situation is so different. Holy Spirit, give us wisdom!

Other stuff we did:

We are still getting settled into our new house and new town and are loving it! We are happy that there are several adoptive families very close by. That will be a wonderful asset to have when at last we adopt.







Dan firing up the grill for the first time

Also in August we were blessed to be "witnesses" at a good friend's wedding. The couple chose to have married couples process with them into the church instead of a typical bridal party. They said they chose us because we have been an example of a good marriage to them, so we felt very honored by that!

We went to a play put on by the youth group at our new parish: "Narnia, the Musical." It was really well done! We were impressed with the talent and effort everyone had put in. It's fun now to see the same kids out of costume and say "hey, weren't you Mr. Tumnus? Weren't you a squirrel?" and see how proud they are of their roles.

Finally, we took part of a Saturday this month to do a mini-retreat together. We went to the National Lourdes Grotto in Emmitsburg, MD, about an hour away. It was such a beautiful, peaceful location on top of a hill. There was a lovely replica of the Lourdes Grotto, a charming little chapel, and a Rosary walk. It was so good to have the time set apart to go and pray together. We prayed a lot for our future child (God willing) and everyone out there who is considering adoption or part of the process in any way.

Praying for the gift of a child (let's be honest!)

In front of the pool fed by the mountain spring

We hope you had a great August, and thanks for your prayers!

Monday, August 1, 2016

"Adopting? Now you'll get pregnant!" {what not to say}

Recently, I had the following conversation with someone at a big group dinner (an acquaintance):

Her: So how long have you been married?
Me: We just celebrated our fifth anniversary in May.
Her: (teasingly) ....so, kids any time soon?
Me: (somewhat irked) Well, we've actually been trying since we were married, and now we're pursuing adoption.
Her: Oh! That's wonderful. I have a friend who right after she adopted, got pregnant!
Me: That's honestly pretty uncommon...
Her: But it can happen!
Me: (feeling pretty steamed by now) Well, if it happens, we're all for it - but right now we're pursuing adoption for its own sake, and not as a first step to getting pregnant.

(I think she then realized that this was not going well, and began talking with someone on the other side - and I needed a minute to calm down and let the steam roll out of my ears....!)

I felt pretty crummy after this exchange! I should say right up front that I think it's charitable to always give the other person the benefit of the doubt, ascribe to them kind motives, realize that people are generally trying their best, and so on. Sheesh, before I experienced infertility and trying-to-adopt, I'm sure I said some not-so-great things to friends struggling to grow their family! (In fact, I can think of concrete instances.)

All the same, as part of this space is our chance to share what we've learned about adoption, hopefully it's not too much of a stretch to write a post about what NOT to say to people when you learn they're adopting.

The #1 thing based on the conversation above is, please please PLEASE refrain from saying anything along the lines of "now you're adopting, just watch, you'll get pregnant!" or telling any stories to that effect.

I get why people want to share this kind of thing. On the one hand (the better hand), it's beautiful to hear when people who have tried for a long time to have children get back-to-back kiddoes! Hey, we'd love that! So in that sense, they are joyous stories and I understand why people like sharing them.

But on the other hand, what it can feel like to someone trying to adopt is minimizing the particular joys and struggles of adoption. It's like a major case of deflection. "Oh, you just graduated? That's cool, but I know someone who has this amazing job right after graduating!" "Oh, you just bought a house? Wow, but just watch, you'll win the lottery any day now!" It's really frustrating any time you share something - especially something really personal and important to you - with someone only to have them basically change the subject immediately. Booooooo. In this instance, instead of talking about adoption (which I always love talking about, and have a lot of thoughts on) suddenly we're talking about pregnancy, which I have zero experience with and actually is not a particularly happy topic for me. (Not to mention the reminder that we've been married five years....where are the kids?)

The other thing is, bringing up the "pregnancy after adoption" thing makes it seem like these two are somehow related. The fact is, just because some people do get pregnant at some point after adopting (in fact: 3-10%, so not that many!), adoption has absolutely no effect on your ability to get pregnant! Seriously. No effect at all. (And no, the mythical "just relax" infertility cure hardly applies here - adopting and parenting a newborn or young child is all kinds of wonderful things but I don't think very "relaxing"!) So yeah. If we are so blessed to adopt, perhaps it will be the case (God willing) that we conceive at some future point. But even if that happens, the adoption honestly won't have anything to do with it. There's definitively no cause and effect going on here.

Lastly, and I think most importantly, bringing up pregnancy when someone tells you they're adopting comes across (to me at least) as privileging pregnancy over adoption - like despite just getting done saying you're excited to be adopting, what you really, truly want is to get pregnant. Now, of course that would be great! Any time! I do want that! But we're pursuing adoption whole-heartedly, and not with a hidden agenda. If we are so blessed to adopt, we won't at all think our child is "second best" because we didn't conceive him/her. Adoption doesn't cure infertility - the deep longing to conceive and bear a child will probably always be present in our hearts - but we are happy about the adoption path we're on and will embrace our child as our own and not as a kind of "substitute" for a biological child.

So there you have it! Something to avoid when talking with someone who is trying to adopt. A better path? If someone tells you "we're adopting," good answers include:

  • Congratulations!
  • What wonderful news!
  • Tell me about it.
  • What kind of adoption?
  • Where are you in the process?
  • How is it going for you?
And most importantly of all: I'll pray for you.

[Bonus: My blogger friend Stephanie wrote a fantastic post a while back that is much more detailed and witty than this one! Definitely worth a read: http://blessedtobeblog.blogspot.com/2014/02/myth-adopting-will-make-you-pregnant.html


While We Wait: June & July 2016 (Months #6 and #7)

We thought we'd combine two recap months into one because these two months just flew by!

Adoption related stuff:

We did the required updates to paperwork that have to be annually updated: getting fingerprints done for background checks, going to the doctor and having forms signed saying we're still in good health, and submitting paperwork to the state to check that we haven't been convicted of child abuse. We did those in mid-June so now that's out of the way for another year.

Other than that, it's been slow in the adoption realm, largely because after we moved in July, we now have to update some additional forms that are house-related. (A home study only applies to one address at a time.) So for right now we're not eligible to be considering any adoption situations or having a child placed with us. It's only temporary, though! This is what we have to do in order to get back in the pool:


  • Fire safety survey: list of safety standards to check off
  • Fire inspection of our new home (by a county fireman)
  • Map of new home with exits marked
  • Emergency plan, like where we would meet if we had to escape
  • Updated financial information
  • Update to our personal bios, basically what's new between last time and now
  • Visit by our social worker to our new home, and conversation with her about how things are going
Our goal is to get these things done in August and be back in the pool by September. Some of it is dependent on other people's availability (fire inspection & social worker visit) but we'll do our best! Then after these things are done, we won't have any major paperwork to do until either we adopt or another year passes and we have to update forms again. 

Other stuff we did:

We moved! That was definitely the biggest event of June and July: getting all packed up, moving, and getting unpacked. It's a lot of work but totally worth it. We feel so grateful for our new home, which we are loving!! All of the neighbors have been really friendly, and three houses so far have people in them who grew up there! This is a big difference from other places we've lived where folks have been more transitory (like us). We love being close to a pool, churches, a farmer's market, and in a very safe, pleasant neighborhood. And despite how much work moving is, it was a joy to spend time with family and friends that day - very convivial. 

Right after moving, we traveled to New Mexico for a week (crazy) for work. We were thrilled we both got to go on the same work trip!

At the top of Sandia Peak, 10,000 feet up
San Miguel in Santa Fe: the oldest Catholic church structure in the country


In June, Bethany had a nice visit to PA for Father's Day weekend to spend time with her parents and treat her dad to brunch at Cracker Barrel.


That same weekend, Dan went to a different part of PA to celebrate a friend's bachelor party. They stayed in a renovated barn in the woods and had a blast.

Dan helped run two major events at the JPII Shrine, one in June: a family retreat day, and one in July: a neighborhood-wide young adult festival timed to coincide with World Youth Day in Krakow, Poland. So that kept him busy!

Perogies - YUM
After Mass in the Basilica

It will be really good to have a breather now after such a busy two months! We are happy to have a more relaxed schedule in August, with time to get all settled in to our new home and to get all the "extra" paperwork done. The path to adoption seems awfully slow at times (admittedly, somewhat of our own doing) but we will keep pushing forward!

Monday, June 27, 2016

A slight detour....to an even better destination (literally!)

We have a life update on something that's adoption-related but not "about" adopting: we are moving (again), this time to our own home! Yay!!

If you've read our "adoption timeline" page, you know that we moved to our current place because our previous home, a basement apartment, was sans windows in the bedrooms and thus not fire-inspection-approvable and thus not adoption-home-study-approvable (bummer). Our current home has been amazing for us! For the past two years we have rented from friends of ours who had to move out of town for work, and have shared a lovely home with two wonderful housemates and their dog. The rent is great for our area, allowing us to save and save and save toward our adoption and future life in general. And our housemates have been so supportive of our adoption plans, which involved them by way of background checks, TB tests, and vaccine records - even the dog had a role to play!

But now it's time to move on, literally. As our two-year lease drew to a close, we talked and prayed about whether we should stay or try to find a new place. For our future long-term home, we have wanted someplace a bit bigger (to adopt multiple children, God willing!) and also eventually someplace to ourselves. This home we thought would make us stronger adoption candidates as well because we will be able to share with birth mothers that we own our own home. So we decided to dip our toes in the house market pool and just see whether in fact there was anything we could afford (and liked) in our rather challenging and expensive area. To make a long and tedious story short, turns out there was! Further, just for transparency's sake, we wanted to tell everyone that (of course) we will not be touching any of the adoption fund savings or donations, so we won't be delaying our adoption plans too much.

Thanks be to God, we found a fantastic house that is just right for us and (God willing!) our growing family down the road. It is bigger than our current house and in a great, peaceful neighborhood with lots of nearby amenities: a pool, library, parks, churches, etc.

It has been a whirlwind getting everything figured out for the home purchase and move, while staying on top of adoption paperwork too! June is when three of our important forms come around for renewal: medical form, fingerprints (FBI background check) and child safety form (a state form showing that we have not been convicted of child abuse in the past year). One day at a time, and thanks to our adoption agency's amazing staff, we're staying on top of everything!

Once we move (July 16) we will need to update a number of other forms that are house-specific: our family safety plan in case of an emergency, the fire inspection, our family monthly budget and overall financial picture, and so on. Our social worker will come back for a walk-through of our new house, and then we will be good to go!

So the home-buying is a bit of a detour on our adoption process, and we are itching to get moved and back in the game so to speak. But the minor detour of a few weeks as we move will put us in a fantastic position for the next years and years of our lives. We will have the bedrooms now to welcome more than one child - maybe more than one at a time - and we will be more settled and ready to (hopefully) watch our family grow.

We'll leave you with a picture of our new home :) and an invitation to come visit next time you are in Maryland or DC!




Sunday, June 5, 2016

While We Wait: May 2016 (month #5)

Adoption related stuff:

It's been another slow month with no situations presented to us, with the exception of a sibling group of four our Maryland agency was trying to place. Unfortunately that's not something we feel equipped to do at the moment. Maybe some day! :) Believe it or not, we're actually coming up to the one-year mark of a few of our home study forms that need to be annually renewed: doctor's form, background check, and fingerprints - to make sure our health is still reasonably good and we haven't committed any crimes in the past year! (makes sense) So we'll be working on those in June to make sure we don't have a "gap" in our home study approval. The staff at our Maryland agency has been fantastic with giving us plenty of lead time for getting forms completed.

We also were offered the opportunity to sign up with another additional placement agency, in Georgia. They contacted our Maryland agency saying that they are seeing a lot of potential adoption situations and are looking for additional families to be in their waiting pool (!) Our Maryland agency asked if they would lower their entry fees for us, since we've already be paid to be on one placement agency's list, and they agreed. So we'll be working on paperwork for that agency soon. It won't be a lot - mainly having our home study shared with them, sending copies of our profile book, etc.

Finally, a note about our fundraising thermometer, which you may have noticed is gone from the side of our blog. For some reason, it kept getting hacked! We'd look at our blog and it would say something like "goal: $1,000; received: $324" - ummmm that's not accurate at all! It had a password to edit it but I guess you can get around that somehow. So now you can see just a very basic box with our fundraising information. You'll have to imagine a thermometer BASICALLY AT THE TOP thanks to the oh-so-generous people in our lives!! We are feeling very good about our financial foundation to adopt going forward.

Other stuff we did: 

May is always special to us because it's our anniversary month. And this was a nice one: five years of marriage! We celebrated by going on a mini-getaway to Richmond, VA, a few hours south of us. It was a lovely weekend with good food, interesting historical sites, and was just so great to get away from work, chores, etc. for a while and celebrate our marriage.

In the Capitol: Mr. Dan and Mr. George Washington

Enjoying the "Mellow Mushroom" - as trippy as it sounds

Fancy chocolate writing always makes the food taste better

The Jefferson Hotel: for some reason we were reminded of the Titanic

Back on the home front, we took advantage of the very limited good weather in May to go on a hike to Great Falls. The water was so high with all the rain we got!


Okay - to be honest since this blog is sharing our lives - the hike was intentionally planned for Mother's Day, which is a difficult day for Bethany (and Dan too). While we remain very hopeful that the gift of motherhood is in our family's future through the wonderful gift of adoption, it is tough to come around to this day another year without a child. It's a day in need of some major healthy distraction! And a relief to see it in the rear view mirror once more. We love our moms and the mom-friends in our lives but are happy to be past the weeks of ads leading up to Mother's Day and the deep aversion to being wished "happy Mother's Day" by strangers (as if it's like "Happy Thanksgiving" - for everyone) - now to do the same for Father's Day in a few weeks....! (we have plans already in place :))

Thanks for humoring that excursion! A final PSA: next Mother's Day, and Father's Day too, say a prayer for those you know for whom this day is hard - which is a lot of folks for one reason or another. It's a good chance to affirm the men and women who are fatherly and motherly, too, even if they haven't been blessed with children.

On to June! We hope and pray that everyone had a great month. Thank you for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. We appreciate it so very much.

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

While We Wait: April 2016 (Month #4)

Adoption Related Stuff
  • April was a slow month for us in terms of adoption. Unlike the previous few months, we didn't have any situations presented to us. And nothing else major adoption-related happened. While of course we can't WAIT for our adoption to happen, it also was okay to have a bit of a "breather" month. Navigating the various situations that have come up has taken a lot of energy and it was nice in a way to get to regroup, have a chance to rest, and get ready for whatever God has in store for us this month.
  • There was one workshop offered by our agency on post-delivery referrals. This means when a family gets a call that birthparents have chosen them for a baby that is about to be born or already is born, so there is very little lead time to get ready (between the call and placement - of course the family may have been waiting for months or years before that!) We learned that these types of placements happen in about half of adoptions, so we have a fifty-fifty chance that this will happen to us! During the workshop, two couples who adopted through our agency last year shared their stories. Our takeaways are that you always need to be flexible with adoption - things can and do change very fast, so you have to go with the flow; and that the time around a placement is highly emotional for everyone involved. It sounds so intense! What a ride this is....
  • The only other adoption-related news is that Bethany bought a book called Breastfeeding Without Birthing that had been recommended by adoptive moms who breastfed their child. Yes, it is possible to breastfeed an adopted baby! We had no idea. While we're not sure whether we'll attempt this or not, it is good to get more information about how it can be done. 


Other Stuff We Did

  • Good friends from Connecticut came to visit us this month, so we did all the touristy stuff in DC: the "Catholic tour" of the John Paul II Shrine, National Basilica, Franciscan Monastery, etc., and the "tourist loop" of the major downtown monuments and museums. The weather cooperated for our downtown stroll - whew, we had forgotten how far apart all the monuments are! We walked 9 miles :)
tulips at the Franciscan Monastery

We had our wedding pictures taken in these gardens!
On the Lincoln Memorial steps

World War II Memorial with the Washington Monument in the background
  • We indulged in some live theater by attending a showing of "Pride and Prejudice" at the Catholic University drama school. We enjoyed supporting actors-in-training and the prices were a lot better than professional theater! Plus, Mr. Darcy [says Bethany].
  • We also had a fun "farm" day on a farm in Virginia where we buy eggs, bacon, etc. The farmers are friends of friends (and attended Bethany's same college) and they have a drop-off once a month at a location near where we work, so it's easy to put in an order and pick up some delicious farm-fresh goodies. They hosted a "come and see" day at their farm and it was really fun! The setting was gorgeous, in the hills near the Blue Ridge Mountains, there was live music and food trucks and adorable pigs. It was a treat to get out in the country!



We hope your April was great!